Not a lot of people have ever been there in my life. Not a story to go into right now. However I had a significant other who was in my life for almost 8 years but passed away in 2011. She supported me in everything for all those years.
I've managed to be able to help some people from my own experiences in life. I've gotten past many things and am a better, more compassionate person because of it. I am a real friend when someone needs one.
It took over 20 years to finally get someone to believe me.
Don't give up emotionally, find a coping skill to help you deal with it.